Somethings u just have to give in...

There r times, as a daughter... Wife... Mother... Or even friend... U just need to give in. Whether u like the idea or not.. Agree to it or not.

34th week n 3 weeks to go...

I'm having this tickling feeling below, I wonder if its an indication? Hmm...

Tired...

I really am tired... Trying to find sense of contentment from everything... I dunno... Just seem to b trying my best to please ppl arnd me... Only to realise that they do not see anything at all but only what they have done for us... All these just makes me tired of everything. I do not wish to b like this. Maybe I should think of myself more than anyone else. Maybe I should do things as I like n not care an inch abt anyone else.

Its really hard to find a balance in life... I hope I find mine soon

Forgetfulness...

I wonder if it really is true that sometimes when a woman gets pregnant, she becomes forgetful. I have forgotten many things...forgot where I've left my keys...forgot to bring my phone... now worse thing... I HAVE LOST MY ENGAGEMENT RING!
OMG!
I'm so gonna get killed! Not really killed... but... argh! Placed it in my wallet as my ring finger has been tight...and fear of losing it if i were to just leave it in my bag... n now i've really lost it!
it really sucks big time!

i should've just let it get stuck on my finger...feels better than losing it.
duh!

sheesh! argh!!!!!!!

Development of babies @ 9 months

http://www.babycenter.com/0_your-9-month-olds-development_713.bc

I can feel another pulse :D

Another person is coming into my life...growing in my womb :D
May we all be healthy, strong, happy, lovely... living this amazing life :D
May there be no pre or post-natal depression for me... and I be able to cope things independently.
Alhumdulillah.... Amin.

*hearts*

Finally... after all these months... I have finally got MYSELF back...
It's scary to think of the person I suddenly became few months ago... its like... kena possessed?
Depression just hits you if you are really not careful.
Well, we all need to look forward and be better!
Mothers' day coming soon... HAPPY MOTHERS' Day MUMMIES!
Love your life, love yourself, love your kids :D these are all that makes u happy :)

Lots of thoughts....

its been a long time since i last blogged.

I didn't want to blog so often as it seems like i'm using this space to pour my hearts out.

But sometimes when people don't really understand you, you really need a space for yourself.

Yes...a space... my husband needs one too.

I hope he finds his soon... As his wife...i hope he can be his happy self again... the loving husband that loves to cook for his wife...that loving father that doesn't mind changing his son's diapers and play wif him while I do some housework...

It's been tough for him...its been tough for everyone in the family... even my mum...

even till now... she can't bear to see us leave whenever we stay over at Hougang.

Maybe she has pampered me a lot... but I guess while she pampers me...she also throw me into challenges...which other don't see... I have always been seen as the "pampered princess"... but do I really have nice dresses, dolls and everything I want just like a princess? No... I don't... my parents went through tough times when they have me... so I know what's tough... I do try to do my part as a mother. But sometimes, people think that my mum still pampers me even now that I have Hamzah.

When I am quiet, talks softly etc...people thinks that I am a little gentle lady... like "wow...so good, I like her" but when I start to... talk a little straight to the point... people think that I am rude.

Am I rude? Or do I really have to keep changing myself to suit others?

It seems like that... Whenever I talk a little direct to my husband or my MIL... they think that I am scolding them... If I were to scold... its even worse...

There's a saying in the Quran that we daughter-in-law should treat or love our MIL the way we treat or love our on mothers... well I cant! If I were to do that... I would really be very rude...

I have been controlling myself... and yet people thinks that I should stop throwing tantrum...or stop being sarcastic... am I really that sarcastic to begin with? Why not see how I speak like 10 years ago?

There's also a saying that MIL should treat or love their DIL as though they treat or love their own daughters... I know mine is trying to... of course I can't expect her to kiss and hug me the way she does to her own daughter... but at least understand that her daughter may be way more rude than I am...

I am not here to complain about everyone... I just wanna reason things out with myself...
well... am I really wrong?